Currently Listening Mr. A-Z By Jason Mraz Wordplay see related

Ok.... I havent written on here in AGES!! Summer is almost over. One more day then tomorrow around 3:00 I will be up at the college getting ready to work my ass off for 3 weeks. But its all good. I need to kick myself into shape. This sports camp will be GREAT. I feel so good after a hard workout. You always feel accomplished.

SO..... I have some major news. No one really reads this anymore so I think its safe to go ahead and put it on here. So I dont know if I mentioned before how I had news and poeple would have to wait until school started to find out and yadda yadda yadda... well My parents know so its safe to let it slip!..JOSH AND I ARE ENGAGED!!! HA HA HA HA. WOW I have been waiting to let that burst ALL SUMMER. Yes its true. I am in love and found THE perfect man in the entire world. To be honest. I dont give a flying fuck who doesnt approve because what ever negative thing you have to say about it... I will just say "go fuck yourself, I dont care". I dont want to hear how I am young and dont know what I am doing, or, that I have my whole life to live why settle down now. None of you know me, none of you know whats best for me except for me. Josh and I are not going into this blindly. We have discussed it over and over again and we know this is right. We are going to wait until I graduate to actually tie the knot. So thats a good thing. I do have a ring.. tho its not from him. My mom gave us a "substitute ring" from my great great aunt. This is so we can save up money for a nice ring. Its fun. So I dont want to hear anything but.. "I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU" OK?? ha ha ha. I know I am being a bitch but I have a right. :0) OK well thats my news for the WHOLE summer. I am off of work in 1/2 hour so I am going to slip out early... its my last day.. and I really dont care. :0)

Have a GREAT rest of your summer everyone. I will see you all in either 1 day or in 3 weeks! LOVE YOU ALL and talk to you later!

Love ya

Ashley

Currently Listening Based on a True Story By Trick Daddy Sugar see related

So lets see.........

Went to Cedars Wed. Night to pick up Megs! That was an interesting trip. Sarah and I had a blast driving down. I drove the entire time so I was kinda tired after 6 hours of driving. Driving to Cedars at night is A LOT different than driving in the day time. Everything looks so different. For the longest time I thought we were going the wrong way. And I had no cell phone service, so we would be pretty much screwed if we got lost! But NO, we were OK. We got there grabbed Megan and headed out again. Things were going great. We stopped for gas, played our music loud and rocked out in the car. Then when we got off I-44 onto Highway 100... we went the wrong way. It felt like we were traveling in the wrong way for an hour.. but it turned out to be only like 15 min. I called my dad and discovered we needed to go east instead of west. I sped all the way home. We made it back about 1:30. I was SO tired and made it to bed around 2:00. Then yesterday we hung out made brownies and then went to CPK for a late lunch.. oh man that was good. My mom came with us to drive back down to Cedars so we could see my sister. (she was a little homesick.. but she is all good now.. no worries!) I had the worst head ache yesterday and wednesday. But once I fell asleep it went away. I think I am all done driving for a good while. Though its good practice for when Josh and I drive back to STL. Alright... well I have 40 min. left of work and then I am going to go to Starbucks to lose myself in caffeine! ;0) ha ha ha.. Have a great weekend everyone!

~Ashley~

So here is the update in the world of Ashley Manker........

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ha ha ha thats it! No just kidding.... Life is pretty much the same. My brother has transformed into a blood sucking maniac who has completely lost his mind. My sister is at camp for the next two weeks which means there will be peace in the house until her return. On this lovely evening I am off to Cedars with Miss Sarah Bailey and we are going to kidnap our dear friend Megan. In the business world, my office has been invaded by tiny ants. They find their way in and manage to crawl all over my floor and my desk. Luckily I have a great wheely chair so when I see them on the floor I "accidently" roll them over! In 3 1/2 weeks I am off to gorgeous NH to see the Love of my life.... yes, yes.. it is true, Joshua Stephen Steele is the love of my life. *SIGH* ha ha ha.. OK well I am outta here... work is boring and my butt is falling asleep. I hope you all have a good night and I will talk to you later!

Ashley

Currently Listening Confessions By Usher Can you Handle it? see related

HELLO OUT THERE~

       So I was just thinking... guys are in their sex prime from about the age of 16 or 17 until like their early 20's. Women are in their sex prime from early 20's until late 20's early 30's. Hell I started my sex prime at 17 and I can tell you that it wont stop until I'm like 80! ha ha ha... but its weird.... We are categorized at these primes. What happens when we pass our prime? Are we not pleasured as much? Is it hard to get arroused? I think for women the prime is when its easier for them to have babies. Then why is it that with part of society sex is OK. Its highly recommended and encouraged. Where as with the other part, its looked down upon and shouldnt be done out of wedlock. I mean sex shouldnt be the marriage.. but it doesnt help the marriage if the sex is bad. So how do you know if the sex will be good? Is it OK to try it out before marriage? Like if you do it once.. just to see. But then it kinda ruins the whole idea of "saving yourself for marriage" Just because you are engaged.. doesnt mean that its set in stone. Engagements can be called off. So the testing out the sex thing probably isnt a good idea. I guess good sex can be taught. I mean if you communicate in bed then there shouldnt be a problem right? Well unless his member isnt big enough.. then there is a problem that cant really be solved. ha ha ha...

I really dont know why I was thinking about this. I mean I dont have any issues... I was watching Sex and the City last night (my all time favorite) and the idea of sex just came to me. Have you ever felt guilty after sex?? and why is that? Well many of you are still virgins.. which is a good thing. I hope it stays that way until you find the right one. See I am all for saving yourself.. not necessarily for marriage but for the right person. Your first time should be special and meaningful. You dont want to remember being crammed in the back seat of a car and his knee in your face or your foot in his eye. Not a good picture. And you want to experience it with someone who cares and who will remember your name. Why is that sex changes everything. Or sexual activity I should say.. becuase even doing other things besides intercourse.. makes it hard to be normal around an ex or ex-fling. I know with my ex.. I have or had a TON of emotional baggage hanging over me. He was my first everything. Thats a HUGE deal especially for a girl. I mean its big for guys.. but girls go through a chemical embalance. Sex affects our menstral cycle and there is just so much more attached to it than there is for guys. But my ex asks me if I have had sex with anyone besides him.. of course I dont tell him. I mean 1. its not his buisness. and 2. its just WEIRD telling him. He thinks I havent and he's glad...I know he has.. its like he is one up on me or something. BLAH Sex sex sex... why is it "not a big deal" and why is it talked about SO much? Im not really looking for any answers.. because I dont think most of you care.. even tho I know you think about it..ITS OK to be comfortable with sex. Yes it is a normal activity. Women.. you are sexy.. be confident in that. Hell I am proud of my sexuality and anyone who knows me.. knows that thats a true statement. I admit. I am horny.. sometimes more often than not. But hey its not a bad thing. I mean I am not all S&M or anything like that. I just know what I want and how to get it. Dont be closet freaks. Thats worse... because everyone already knows.. its just painful trying to watch you hide it.

WOW OK this is long enough. I am going to go waste some more time wandering around my building. Hope all is well with all ya'll.. talk to you later gators!

Ash*

Hello my dear friends~

      SO I am off to get my hair cut in like 45 min. I am going to get it cut SHORT... to my chin or a little under. I am excited. I love changing things up.. it keeps life some what interesting.

I got the plane ticket to NH on Tuesday. Its a done deal now. I am kinda stoaked. It wasnt that expensive either..$129.90. Not bad, not bad. Now I have to wait 5 weeks. Thats the hard part... but its all good I can do it.

Life and work is good.. the same.. but good. I am hopefully going to be getting out more soon. I REALLY want to go dancing.. but no one here wants to go with me... I really shouldnt go either.. since the only reason guys go is to bang their nasty ass cock into our asses. Not a good idea for someone with a boyfriend. I need to get out.. I am feeling old at the age of 19. I am tired at 6:00 and ready for bed. I crawl into a tank and shorts when I get home and veg on my bed in front of the TV. What happened to the staying up late and partying till like 3 am. I miss the good ole days. ha ha ha...all right my lovely people. I am ogg to get my hair cut and grab some grub. Hope summer is great for ya'll. LOVE YOU

*Ashley*